Sickbunny

Hi ! Ive been really into sewing clothing lately, usually making it fit the punk rock genre (so black, tartans, fushcia colors, studs and spikes patches, and bondage style) . Im also a licensed cosmetologist who happens to be left handed. I own a 21 gallon tank that is fully planted with a wonderful betta fish named sid vicious. Even though i live in california I love jackets, trench coats to hoodies- typically a size medium (size 6) Im currently 37 years old. I dye my hair often usually to punky colours flamingo pink color. I dont have a lot of favorites never been able to say "that's my absolute favorite" cause I wind up loving a lot of stuff equally. I started doing custom 1/6 dolls to be badass assasins and secret agents. Im really into the cyperpunk feel/genre... like putting up l.e.d strip lights everywhere and just rgb lighting in general.

Im a doer... if i dont know something i look it up research it, figure it out. Recently cut a giant hole in the wall and fixed it because the outlet wasn't put in right. Things like that. I've taught myself web development (although still learning that) its fun and a huge enjoyment.
I think I'm here because I like doing things for other people without wanting credit, like I get panic attacks if I'm center of attention so the more anonymous the better. But also on some level trying to make up for my childhood (which was bad and I'm estranged from my family because i finally stood up for myself to not be their scapegoat and emotional punching bag) I'm in a wonderful relationship with someone who encourages me daily and enjoys the same things I do but lets me have my things just be mine (like sewing, he's happy cause he has custom made clothing that are truly one of a kind and super comfy) and who also gets happy because I'm happy and he sees how proud I am that I finished something (this is something my family never did they would actually go out if their way to sabotage my projects or equipment). Also he's the only person who has ever let me just be sick and lie down without expecting me to do anything but rest.
I have severe anxiety and agoraphobia (not the severe kind where i can't leave the house, the kind where i freak out going someplace new until it becomes habit) I work on myself daily breaking bad habits and teaching myself that Ican stop the bad intrusive thoughts. Sewing and web development and general crafts (like designing logos and shirts) are some of the ways I keep myself centered. Some of the things i enjoy: bands - the aquabats, no doubt, green day (older stuff),... movies - mr right (such a cute movie), IT (old and new), killer klowns from outer space, blade runner (2049 also), most vampire movies,... books - junkie, cities of the red night. Fabric stores - mood fabrics, fabrics and fabrics (https://fabrics-fabrics.com/) Weirdly I live at the beach but never go, I burn super easily rarely go in the sun (take vitamin d to supplement) when I do go it's night time. Sometimes bonfires can be fun.
This is such a hodgepodge of info no idea if its helpful.